velvetmoth

It was my birthday and I spent a week or two on holiday, in more than one sense! I put on a couple of pounds and was steeling myself to add them to my tracker - my first gain since starting on buddyslim - for about a week and a half. However, when I weighed myself yesterday I’d lost 4lb through upping the exercise! So I managed to craftily avoid having to track a gain, and I’m ever so happy that my body seems to be getting used to letting go of those lbs - it had got rather good at hoarding them!

3lb left to mini-goal now and 2lb to my first stone lost. It feels pretty good, and I’m hoping to do it in a week. We shall see

I can’t tell you how good it is to feel my clothes getting a little looser. It makes a change - for the past year and a half, the only sensation has been of tightening! Finally, it seems I’ve found something that works for me - and getting treatment for my PCOS (metformin) and hypothyroidism (thyroxine replacement) definitely helps give my body a bit of support.

Anyway, after months of feeling frustrated and hopeless as in spite of my best efforts the weight continued to creep up, I finally feel like I could have a body shape I’m proud of. It’s ace.

I ate quite a lot of crap over the weekend when I visited my boyfriend in london, and I’ve ended up in that classic guilt eating cycle again. Of course, now I’m obsessing over it I end up eating things I don’t even want. It’s annoying, but the cupboard is now closed. I have an alternative ball to go to in two weeks time, and I’d like to lose 4lb for it, just so I feel like I’m making progress. Back on the wagon I go.

Besides, I feel so much better when I’m on this diet, it’s a motivation in itself: I feel more energetic, my digestion is better, my skin improves,  I sleep more deeply, I don’t get as allergic to dust and cat hair. It’s worth doing anyway. I think I have to tone down the good food bad food thing, because it can make me obsess: I’ll concentrate on exercise and visualise my goals a lot instead.

It really helps to track my progress on here, it keeps me focused and stops me going into denial. I’ve promised myself I’ll weigh in once a week no matetr how “bad” I think I’ve been, so I stay accountable for my choices.

I’ve waffled on enough now, but if anyone has any tips for stopping obsessing and just getting on with things, I’m all ears

I found some great motivation to lose weight and stick at it last week - I’ve decided to spend a month in New Zealand with some old friends. I used to live in New Zealand and visited regularly, but they haven’t seen me since about 5 years ago now, when I was about 25lb lighter, and much fitter! I really don’t want to turn up and be the fat chick from England who used to be hot

So I’m going to try to lose, well, as much fat as possible, in the next 2 months. I have about ten weeks, maybe less, because I leave after the first week of December.  Note that I say fat, because I don’t mind if my weight stays similar as long as I lose inches and gain fitness. So I’m going to stick to the lovely diet I’m on with renewed vigor, and make sure I do at least 15 minutes of concentrated exercise a day. Inweight terms, 2lb a week would be nice, becaue then i’d have lost about 20lb by the time I go to New Zealand.

It’s good, I feel excited and positive at the moment because I think I can do this. My diet, the Holford Low GL diet, is making me feel great - I have loads more energy, don’t feel hungry, have better digestion and fewer headaches already, and it’s only been a week! Of course it’s early days, but signs are good. I’d recommend this diet to anyone else with hormonal difficulties like hypothyroidism or PCOS, or just insulin resistance, which are affecting their weight.

How nice the buddyslim community seems to be. It’s wonderful seeing everyone being so supportive, positive and non-judgemental, especially since we’re mostly women!

Us ladies can tear each other down a lot in the real world, which I think is a shame. We only hurt ourselves in the long run, because we end up living in a society that wants you to do badly so they feel better about themselves, which is such a vicious cycle. Especially in a world where there are still some inequalities between the sexes, we really need to stick together and be kind to one another. I realise I’m getting on a bit of a soapbox now, but I really believe that.

I’m going to try to take this positive attitude towards our fellow women out into the real world with me - it would be lovely to be able to be honest about what I see as my flaws and problems, and feel that I’d be supported and understood rather than judged or talked about later. I am exaggerating to make a point, but wouldn’t it be nice to feel that?

Ok, so last time I wrote a blog post, when I had just opened this account, I spent ages getting it right, only to have it refuse to post itself. I got in a bit of a strop and haven’t visited the site in a while, but here I am trying again. I’ll keep it short though, just in case it crashes again!

I have PCOS and Hypothyroidism, both developed in the last year and a half, which meant I put on about three stone in the space of a year. It sucked. Now, I’m determined to work my way down again. With treatment for my conditions and a good diet and exercise plan, plus support from all you lovely people, I will.